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Showing posts with label Sarah Ockler. Show all posts

Spotlight: BITTERSWEET by Sarah Ockler

I'm thrilled to spotlight Sarah Ockler's latest YA novel, BITTERSWEET. Cupcakes and hockey players? How's that for a winning combination? I really cannot wait to read this one. A copy is on its way to me as I type!!


Here's the description from Goodreads:

"Once upon a time, Hudson knew exactly what her future looked like. Then a betrayal changed her life, and knocked her dreams to the ground. Now she’s a girl who doesn’t believe in second chances… a girl who stays under the radar by baking cupcakes at her mom’s diner and obsessing over what might have been. 

So when things start looking up and she has another shot at her dreams, Hudson is equal parts hopeful and terrified. Of course, this is also the moment a cute, sweet guy walks into her life…and starts serving up some seriously mixed signals. She’s got a lot on her plate, and for a girl who’s been burned before, risking it all is easier said than done. 

It’s time for Hudson to ask herself what she really wants, and how much she’s willing to sacrifice to get it. Because in a place where opportunities are fleeting, she knows this chance may very well be her last…."



Have you seen the amazing trailer? I love it! I told Sarah it reminded me of one of my favorite movies, WAITRESS, and she said she likes to think of her book as WAITRESS meets CUTTING EDGE. Awesome! I think Sarah has a winner with this one.

Hot Topic Tuesday: Dream Squishers, Backup Plans, and Other Things That Ruin Your Life

When I Grow Up...

I've wanted to be a writer since I first learned how to read, but the only reason I'm an author today is that four years ago, after I came home crying from a hellish workday and my MBA night class, my husband looked me in the eyes and said, in his gentle but no-B.S.-allowed way:

"You're a writer. And even though I know you'll kick ass in your MBA program and any career you follow, you're still a writer. You keep trying to run away from it, but you won't be truly happy unless you put your energy and time into finishing your book."

Well, duh. Sounds pretty simple, but after listening for decades to teachers, guidance counselors, parents, friends, and society about the importance of following "the right career path," I was pretty brainwashed. My husband's words were a mega wakeup call. I dropped out of grad school and devoted the next few months to finishing my neglected writing project, a.k.a. Twenty Boy Summer. A few months later, I sold the book, and long story short... now I get to write stories for teens every single day and work from home in my PJs. :-)

But this post isn't about my awesome husband who encouraged me to follow my dream. It's about the people who encouraged me not to -- people that many teens have or will encounter as they start thinking about their own dreams, career and otherwise.

Congratulations! Your Career Match is...

All through junior high and high school, whenever I took a "life assessment" -- those Cosmo-quiz like assignments they handed out on career day that were supposed to determine your ideal career based on whether you liked people or traveling or cooking or watching grass grow -- my answer was always the same: commercial artist or writer. Which was super cool, because back then, not only did I write reams of horrible poetry and pointless short stories loosely based on my own life, I drew all the time, too. I did at-home research projects for fun on Disney, Hanna-Barbera, and the history of animation, and I secretly imagined myself drawing cartoons for Disney Studios. A creative life that blended my inherent passion for art with my supposed career-day-approved skill set? Sounds like a match, right?

That's Nice, Dear. But What About...

Apparently, not everyone in my life thought a creative career was a good plan. In fact, whenever I'd start talking about the possibility of pursuing writing or art for a living, people would respond with things like:
  • Writers and artists don't make any money.
  • You should really have a backup plan, just in case it doesn't work out.
  • Be serious. Writing and drawing are a hobbies, not careers.
  • Don't you want to be like [insert name of wealthy, "successful" relative who is not an artist or writer]?
Fast forward fifteen to twenty years. Despite the fact that I'd shoved my creative urges into the closet and taken a very "traditional" career path that landed me in a job eerily similar to the movie Office Space, I still managed to write and sell a YA novel. How? Well, like my husband said, dreams have a way of catching up to you, no matter how hard -- and for how long -- you try to outrun them. But even after I'd done it -- followed and achieved my life's dream -- people still responded to the news with things like:
  • You probably won't make any real money writing, so you'd better not quit your day job.
  • Nobody reads anymore, so you can't make a serious career out of writing books.
  • Why don't you finish your MBA and just "do your writing" on the side?
  • I realize [insert name of wealthy, "successful" relative who is not an artist or writer] is now divorced because he spent his whole life working and neglecting his family, and now he never gets to see his grown kids, but at least he has a nice house and a lot of money.
It was the exact same naysaying rhetoric I'd heard as a teen, and now it was coming from all angles: family, friends, and even total strangers! And despite the fact that I now write full time, get paid to do what I love, and yes, sell books to people who supposedly don't read (magic, right?), I still hear some variation on the "why don't you do X instead" theme all the time. I'm not kidding.

Why Do People Hate On Dreams?

I think part of it is that some people -- even well-meaning people who love us and truly believe they have our best interests at heart -- can get so stuck in their own modes that they can't imagine a life where someone makes different (i.e., non-traditional) choices, and makes those choices work. And instead of asking questions and learning about it, or just being encouraging and supportive, or just plain STFU-ing, they become dream squishers. They try to talk us out of it, or put down the successes we've already earned (and by "successes," I mean whatever goals or achievements we set for ourselves, which often have nothing to do with money or promotions or levels or anything like that). They insist we need backup plans, because that's what they were taught. Because that's the smart, logical, successful thing to do.

But you know what I say about that?

Screw Backup Plans!

When it comes to following your dreams, screw backup plans. If you love something, and you want to spend your life pursuing it, then you must. No matter what other people say or think. If it's in your heart to do it, you have to find a way to make it happen. Don't "plan B" your dreams! And don't let other people tell you how something is or how it will be (even me, with this blog post). Find out for yourself by exploring, trying, learning, asking questions, venturing, tasting, experiencing, and maybe even screwing up a few times. When you let other people talk you out of something you haven't even tried yet, you let them eliminate your options and make your choices for you.

And when you do that, the rest of us lose out, because we don't get to experience the unique, special gifts you have to offer, whether those gifts involve writing, drawing, medicine, acting, inventing things, flying planes, designing buildings, raising children, starting a business, running for president, dancing, singing, making cupcakes, growing crops, playing football, painting houses, teaching someone to read, or any of the gazillion other things people dream about.

And that's just not cool!

Your Turn!

What about you? Have you encountered dream squishers (even well-meaning ones)? Do you have a backup plan (or feel like you should have one) for your dream? Have you ever made a choice about your education, career, or other important decision based on someone else's "warning" that your plan might not work out? Tell us about it in the comments!

Spotlight Wednesday: I'M NOT HER by Janet Gurtler

I'm not a fan of cheating as a general rule, but today, I'm cheating for Spotlight Wednesday. I mean, just a little bit. Because I'm super excited for this new contemp book (yay!), but it won't hit the shelves until May (boo!), but you can totally add it to your Goodreads list right now (yay!), so I did the math and decided that two yays make a right.

Or something like that.

Anyway, let's talk about the book!

I'M NOT HER, by Janet Gurtler


“For the first time in my life, I didn’t feel envy…”

Tess is the exact opposite of her beautiful, athletic sister. And that’s okay. Kristina is the sporty one, Tess is the smart one, and they each have their place. Until Kristina is diagnosed with cancer. Suddenly Tess is the center of the popular crowd, everyone eager for updates. There are senior boys flirting with her. Yet the smiles of her picture-perfect family are cracking and her sister could be dying. Now Tess has to fill a new role: the strong one. Because if she doesn’t hold it together, who will?

Janet Gurtler tests the bonds of sisterhood in this moving debut that readers of Jodi Picoult and Sarah Dessen will savor.


I had an opportunity to read this last month, and I devoured it. Tess' story unfolds beautifully as she transforms from the quiet, artistic underdog of the family to the strong one, the responsible one, the one who has to become both the parent and the "big sister" while still figuring out exactly how to be herself. The family dynamic is so painful at times -- it's heartbreaking to watch them collapse under the weight of Kristina's diagnosis and flounder as their once gregarious, beautiful volleyball champ retreats into solitude and hopelessness.

But this story isn't about the girl in the spotlight. It's about the girl in the shadows, the one who's forced to find her way into the light to keep her family from totally self-destructing. As much as it brought me to tears, I loved watching Tess struggle with her own questions, doubt, frustrations with her parents and their inability to accept and deal with this tragedy, the equal parts love/resentment/fear she feels toward her sister, and her tenuous but unwanted place in the spotlight at school. All of these emotional challenges and roller coaster rides help Tess discover her own inner strength -- a strength she had all along, just waiting for the perfect moment to bloom.

I'M NOT HER is, quite simply, a downright real story. And here at The Contemps, that's what we're all about, right? :-) So I know you'll forgive me for cheating today with this quick little teaser! Still over a month before it hits the shelves officially, but in the mean time, you can:

Add I'M NOT HER to your Goodreads list
Visit Janet online

Teen Thursday: Save the Drama for Your Mama

Mom always used to call me a drama queen. So when we moved to a new school Freshman year, I decided to make it all official. I mean, after all those lectures and eye rolls, maybe mom was wrong -- we didn't need less drama in our house. We needed more!

So I signed up for drama club.

The only problem was... I couldn't sing. Or dance. Or act. Or get up on stage and do anything in front of a group larger than, say, one. But my new BFFs were joining the club and trying out for the school musical, and I didn't want to be left behind. So I signed up. And everything was awesome --we read plays and talked about them and even got to miss school for trips to Toronto to see The Phantom of the Opera and A Chorus Line. Those were my first big shows, and I loved every minute of it -- sitting in the dark with my new friends, waiting for the curtain to go up, the music to start. The actors moved across the stage like we'd just interrupted a real story, unfolding right before us. It was magical.

I love drama club!

But then...

*Insert VH1 voiceover*

Things turned bad for the band. Rather, for me.

Audition time for the school musical. I kind of forgot about that part. We all had to show up early in the morning on a Saturday along with all the other kids who weren't in drama club but still wanted to audition. In groups of three, we were called up to the front and told to sing a few lines from the musical along with the chorus teacher, who was playing piano. I don't even remember the musical -- just the line from the song:

Ya gotta have heart!
All you really need is heart!
When the odds are saying you'll never win
That's when the grin should start...


Even with two others by my side, I... well, ladies and gentlemen, ever hear of the word CHOKE? It was invented on that special day. The chorus teacher kept stopping and starting over to give me pointers, the last one being, "Okay that's enough, thank you."

Next we had to stand in a line of five and copy a few dance moves from another drama teacher. Well he was this big bear of a guy, and even he made the steps look like cake. He was a prima ballerina compared to me. I tried to follow along, but I couldn't get the steps right, and I kept going the wrong way and knocking into the other students. I'm surprised I didn't hurt anyone.

By the end of the mortification I mean audition, I practically ran out of there, desperate to get home and drown my sorrows in a pint of ice cream. But the fun wasn't over yet! The following Monday, the cast list was posted on the board in the hallway for all to see. Of course they list the ten leads or whatever, the soloists, the characters with just a few lines. And then, like, EVERYONE else for the chorus -- that mass group that kind of stands in the background singing off key but it doesn't matter because there are enough decent singers to carry the rest, and that way, everyone gets a chance.

Everyone but me. That's right, I didn't even make the chorus.

My friends, who'd both scored decent parts, tried to console me. But truthfully, I was relieved. I think the whole school was relieved. And soon after, I gracefully exited drama club and focused instead on a new venture. Writer's club. I think it was a good tradeoff for all involved!

So, drama kids, let's see a show of hands! Tell me about your drama experiences in high school. Did/do you try out for the plays? Are you a prima ballerina, American Idol hopeful, or an uncoordinated clod who can't carry a tune (aka a "Sarah Ockler")? No judgments here, friends. Trust me. :-)

And by the way, if you're looking for some great theater/drama club contemporary teen reads, check out ONE WISH by Leigh Brescia and MY INVENTED LIFE by Lauren Bjorkman!

Spotlight Wednesday: FIXING DELILAH by Sarah Ockler



Despite all evidence to the contrary, I’m really not the car-denting kind of girl. I’m also not the lipstick-stealing, school-skipping, off-in-the-woods-with-someone-I-barely-know kind of girl, or the kind who loses all of her dignity over a scandalous cell phone picture on a trashy blog. But that is the evidence, exhibits A through E, all stacked up against me, and now I’m like the bad guy on one of those cop shows, handcuffed to an airplane seat. Only instead of getting the handsome, tough-but-emotionally-wounded police escort, I’m stuck on a seven-hour road trip with Commander Mom and her arsenal of mobile communications devices.
- From Chapter 1 of Fixing Delilah (read it here!)


I. Love. That. How could you not? Voice, style. I'm immediately drawn into the scene and I want to know MORE. I love writing that takes you places and Sarah Ockler's writing will definitely do that.

You have probably heard of Sarah Ockler--she made waves in 2009 with her beautifully written debut Twenty Boy Summer, which PublishersWeekly dubbed "a poignant summer read" and Kirkus called a "sincere, romantic tearjerker." (You've read it, right? Of course you have!). Now it's 2010 and she's back again with Fixing Delilah, which hit shelves December 1st and we couldn't be more thrilled to celebrate her sophomore release with her!

So what's Fixing Delilah about, you might ask? Well, I gots a summary for ya right here:


Things in Delilah Hannaford's life have a tendency to fall apart.

She used to be a good student, but she can't seem to keep it together anymore. Her "boyfriend" isn't much of a boyfriend. And her mother refuses to discuss the fight that divided their family eight years ago. Falling apart, it seems, is a Hannaford tradition.

Over a summer of new friendships, unexpected romance, and moments that test the complex bonds between mothers and daughters, Delilah must face her family's painful past. Can even her most shattered relationships be pieced together again?


If you're a fan of well written, emotionally strong and amazing fiction, you NEED to pick this up, Internet. Don't make me tell you twice. Check out some of this fabulous buzz it's getting:


"Fixing Delilah is fabulous... Delilah is a girl who I wouldn’t mind being friends with because she’s real."
- Good Books & Good Wine

"Truly impressive in its depth, sincerity and emotional connectivity."
- Persnickety Snark

"Sarah does a fabulous job presenting strong characters that each find their way into your heart as the story progresses."
- Confessions of a Total Bookaholic

"[Sarah Ockler] has written a well-rounded story where she perfectly captures the conflict that can arise within a family when there is dishonesty and secrets kept. It has the perfect blend of romance, mystery and enough family drama to keep you engrossed emotionally."
- All About {n}

"[Sarah Ockler] has a knack for capturing the first-person narrative in such a way that the reader really feels as if she is experiencing the story simultaneously with the protagonist... Delilah is such a fantastic character and her story is so heart-wrenching and poignant."
- As Told By Jen


What are you waiting for?! Go get it!

But before you do, can I tell you something? Fixing Delilah is the book equivalent of the song Tarnation by Max Avery Lichtenstein to me. They are both such amazing works. Check it out:




It has become my unofficial theme song for Sarah's book! (Sarah, I hope that's okay!) So needless to say, I think you should all listen to Tarnation while you read your copy. And then come back and exclaim about how well they go together so I can be all, "I told you so!" Because seriously.

Sarah, CONGRATS on the release of Fixing Delilah! We hope you've had a fantastic launch! And if you've read Fixing Delilah, don't forget to tell us what you thought about it in the comments!

Spotlight Wednesday: The Six Rules of Maybe, by Deb Caletti

Author Deb Caletti has a very special place in my heart, as she is one of three authors I credit with introducing me to (and subsequently hooking me on) contemporary YA literature, way back before I started writing for teens myself. Her books Honey, Baby, Sweetheart and The Queen of Everything helped me discover my own young adult voice and inspired me to begin work on the manuscript that would later become Twenty Boy Summer. I even had the opportunity to fangirl Deb in person at an event last year, and hopefully I only marginally embarrassed myself with my incoherent blathering and dramatic gushing (yes, it's important to have goals!).

A few weeks ago, I got my fangirly little paws on a copy of Deb's latest book, The Six Rules of Maybe. Here's the summary from her Web site:
Scarlett Hughes is overly involved in the lives of everyone around her, especially her neighbors, including: a young goth girl who chalks her very traditional wishes on the sidewalk; a forgetful mailman; and an older couple whose main excitement in their lives are the formal-sounding scam emails from foreign lands promising large sums of money.

But when Scarlett’s sister, Juliet, returns home from school—pregnant and surprisingly married to a sweet, handsome boy who she seems to have no interest in, but who is hopelessly in love with her—Scarlett is thrust solidly into her own life, and forced to take a look inward for the first time.

The Six Rules of Maybe is about the necessity of dreams, as well as the necessity of facing reality and speaking the truth.

What this summary doesn't say is that The Six Rules of Maybe is also about a teen who falls hard for her sister's hot, sensitive, funny, soulful, 23-year-old husband, Hayden. The dynamic between the two sisters and the husband is so naturally awkward and heartbreaking that I found myself cheering for Scarlett despite the messed-up-ness of the whole situation. She's just such a sympathetic, relatable character, always trying to protect people, always trying to right wrongs and save those around her even when she's being completely overbearing about it. And her sister is pretty self-centered on the surface, but the more time you spend with her, the more you sense the depth of her own issues and struggles. This book explores unrequited love on many levels through the eyes of each character -- Scarlett, her sister Juliet, their single mother whose husband left when the girls were toddlers, Juliet's husband Hayden, even Scarlett's neighbors and friends at school have their own unique views on relationships.

And the writing? Wow. Deb Caletti has such a way with words that I literally found myself talking to the book, shouting things like, "Yes! Totally!" and "OMG, I remember that!" and "I know exactly what you mean!" No matter where the action of the story unfolded, whether it was on the beach or in the car or in someone's kitchen, she just brought me there, like I was watching it happen in my own house or driveway. Her descriptions are beautiful and poignant, never flowery or overdone. And her dialogue is just so natural -- I seriously felt like I was eavesdropping on real people. It's so rare that a book hits me on all of those levels. What a gem.

I began the first chapter intending on reading for an hour, and then making dinner. By the time I reached the last line in Chapter 1, I figured we were in for a late meal. Well, Pet Monster and I went hungry that night, because I curled up on the couch under my blanket (the one with the sun, moon, and stars on it that I save just for date nights with fictional characters) and didn't move until I'd finished. And when I did finish, I let out a big, all-encompassing, isn't-life-simultaneously-exhausting-and-amazing sigh. And I really wanted to track down Deb Caletti's phone number right that INSTANT and for a little fangirl redux, but I thought that would be slightly stalkerish, especially since it was around 4 am. So I did the next best thing -- I tweeted about it.

And you know what? I was shocked -- SHOCKED! -- to learn that so many YA book bloggers and readers hadn't yet discovered the fabulousness that is Deb Caletti! That's when I knew I had to write about my undying Caletti-devotion for Spotlight Wednesday.

If you're one of these Caletti Virgins (you know who you are), I encourage you to visit The Six Rules of Maybe page, where you can read the first chapter, see what other people think about the book, and check out an essay Caletti wrote about some of the themes in the story. She also has 6 other books and a new one coming out in April 2011 called Stay.

If you're not new to the awesomeness of this contemporary YA author, what other Caletti books have you read? Which are your favorites?

Hot Topic Tuesday: Speak Loudly Against Censorship

By now everyone has heard about what I'm calling the Wesley Scroggins Crazytrain Manifesto coming out of Republic, Missouri. Lots of readers, authors, librarians, and other book lovers (many from Missouri! Non-whackos represent!) have come forward to show support against the proposed ban of Speak, Twenty Boy Summer, and Slaughterhouse Five, and for that, thank you!

I've already shared my thoughts-slash-rants on the Twenty Boy Summer issue over here, but I also have a few words about Speak, and why free access to it is so important for teens. Check it out.



The Contemps Speak Loudly

Here are some additional thoughts from fellow Contemps on the Speak Loudly fight:Your Turn

After Scroggins made this fight public this weekend, so many people have stepped up to fight back. If you'd like to share anything in the comments about your own personal stance, about your thoughts on Speak, or about any other books that helped you overcome something difficult, please do so! And don't forget to enter the Wesley Scroggins Filthy Books Prize Pack giveaway for a chance to win a copy of each of the challenged books and some very naughty dark chocolate!

One more thing... can we get a group hug? You guys rock.

Spotlight Wednesday: Shine, Coconut Moon by Neesha Meminger

This weekend marked nine years since the September 11th attacks, and in so many ways, we're still reeling. It's something I think about often. Something impossible to escape or forget (as it should be). With each passing year, I remember being in New York City that day. Being unable to leave when they shut down all transportation and roads, in or out. Being afraid of what might happen next, what target, what destruction...

But unlike so many others, when the dust cleared, I got to go home that day, alive and unharmed. Unlike so many others, I got to hug my family again and eat ice cream and drink wine and write books. And unlike so many others, in the wake of the attacks and the wars that followed, I've never been harassed or beat up for "looking" like a terrorist, for practicing the "wrong" religion. I've never been eyed up suspiciously in a public place or made to feel uncomfortable or afraid because of my clothing or hairstyle. I've never had to fear for my life because my skin is the wrong shade -- the shade of "the enemy."

The Qu'ran burning fiasco and all the protest over a Muslim temple near the WTC site got me thinking about these things a lot this year, and it gave me a nudge to pick up Neesha Meminger's 2009 debut, SHINE, COCONUT MOON.

Neesha Meminger's SHINE, COCONUT MOONThe story takes place in the days and months following the 9/11 attacks. Samar Ahluwahlia, known as Sam to her friends, is a seventeen-year-old Sikh Indian teen living in suburban New Jersey with her single mom, a therapist who has all but renounced her own Indian family and culture. When Samar's long lost uncle Sandeep comes back into their lives looking to reconnect, he awakens Samar to a whole new world -- the world of her Sikh Indian cultural and ethnic heritage.

After an Indian girl at school jokingly calls her a coconut -- brown on the outside, white on the inside -- Samar enlists her uncle's help and sets off on a journey of self-discovery, searching for the truth about her family, about her heritage, and about the post-9/11 world in which she's growing up. Though her mother had always tried to shield Samar from the harsh reality -- from encouraging her daughter to essentially shake off the occasional childhood racism and bullying she endured at school to protecting her from her overbearing, judgmental grandparents -- Samar must now confront that reality head on as her turban-wearing Sikh uncle becomes the target of anti-Muslim violence.

While SHINE, COCONUT MOON is not about 9/11 specifically, the story parallels the national tragedy with Samar's personal struggle to find out who she really is in such a heartbreaking, intimate way that it immediately brought me back to the days and weeks following the attacks. Not because of the grand scale of violence and loss of life that day, but because of the people -- the people whose loved ones died and who can never escape their grief. The people who continue to fight in wars overseas, so long and endless. And the people who were and continue to be blamed and attacked or even killed because of how they live their lives in this country -- the so-called "land of the free" -- because of the actions of a few extremists to which they've no connection other than skin color, country of origin, or the name of their religion (and in some cases, like Uncle Sandeep, not even those things).

Now, nine years later, I want to think we're all better for our shared struggles. That we've all learned something about diversity and freedom and connectedness. But when I see things like the Qu'ran burning and the mosque protests, I wonder if that's even possible. I wonder whether 9/11 sparked such hate and fear, or if it just shined a bigger spotlight on stuff that was always there in our world, shoved under the rug until we suddenly had a "common enemy" to fight and a national expectation to take sides.

I don't know the answer, but Uncle Sandeep's words to his niece are a good reminder for all of us as we struggle to figure out who we are and watch our friends and neighbors do the same:

"We're not humans on a spiritual journey, Samar. We are spirits on a human journey. Remember that."

I hope you'll check out SHINE, COCONUT MOON. In the mean time, what are some of your other favorite contemporary stories of self-discovery and cultural heritage?

Teen Thursday: Graduation Day & Senior Pranks

It's funny to talk about graduation day at the beginning of the new school year, when 2010 grads are off on the new paths of college or work, and the class of 2011 is looking down that long road of senior year and wondering just how much coffee/chocolate/music/reading it will take to get through it. But to me, it's still summer, and summer has always been a time of transition -- the warm break just after the new life of spring, just before the quiet death of autumn. The pause between one school year and the next that seems to get shorter with every passing year. The final deep breath before graduating seniors jump into the exciting, terrifying abyss of something new.

Graduation day. What's not to love?

Well, for starters, the girls had to wear a see-through white gown instead of the much cooler maroon that the guys sported. My hair, after a tragic frizz-inducing incident with an entire bottle of blonde highlighting conditioner, wasn't cooperating and had to go into a messy ponytail. I wasn't on the best of terms with my parents (as evidenced by the awkward family photo -- does Mom look like she wants to kill someone or what?). I didn't have a lot of friends in my school, so no post-grad bashes filled my calendar. And the worst part? I had absolutely no idea what I was supposed to do with my life after this. The only thing that tempered my otherwise complete terror was my excitement about leaving home at the end of summer, heading off to college. I didn't know what I'd study, what path I'd take to the future... it was enough that I was finally gaining my freedom, away from the dull homogeneity of high school and the oppressive rules of my parents.

Speaking of dull homogeneity...

Our 320-student graduating class was notorious for its lack of school spirit. While previous senior classes held fundraisers to go on Caribbean cruises for their senior trips, ours raised only enough for a 400-mile bus ride to a long weekend in New York City. Most of our sports teams were mediocre at best, and our teachers constantly outshone us in pep-itude at the pep rallies. And our yearbooks, those timeless keepsakes inside which we were supposed to spend the last month of school trading signatures and inside jokes, were delayed by the printer, promised to be sent to us sometime the next fall, long after many of us would've forgotten about them. Whatever.

Class prank? Our class?

Ennui. Apathy. That kind of collectively summed us up, as far as school stuff went. So I knew our class prank -- if we even did one -- would be mild by comparison. Nothing elaborate. Nothing daring and dangerous, hilarious and clever, or mildly illegal. Nothing for the annals. Maybe even nothing at all.

But suddenly, graduation day arrived, and there was something, after all.

I don't know who came up with it. I don't know how it was decided and organized, or how they got us all -- jocks, nerds, goths, heads, stoners, band geeks, drama queens, wannabe gangstas, preps, sluts, prudes, skaters, and everyone in between -- to agree to it (maybe because it would take too much of that missing spirit to say no). I wasn't on the inside track to such grand plans (possibly because of the socially ostracizing orange hair incident). I was just happy that someone passed me a coveted, much-whispered about ping-pong ball just before the ceremony. We all got one. All 320 of us.

And then it was on.

As each of us crossed the stage and reached out to shake the hand of our principal and receive our long-awaited diploma, we handed him a ping-pong ball.

At first, the principal kind of chuckled and thanked students in an "aw, shucks" kind of way, as if he was let in on some special rite of passage or inside joke. One ball went into his suit coat pocket. Then another. And another. But soon he had nowhere to put the excess balls, trying awkwardly to hold them in one hand while handing out diplomas, his smile never wavering as one ball then another slipped from his control.

That's a lot of balls.

I mean, think about it. 320? Even 20 balls is a lot when you're standing up on a stage in an echo-chamber assembly hall in front of two thousand parents and grandparents and onlookers, little white balls escaping and bouncing all over the shiny wood floors and down into the crowd, escalating in frequency as each of us crossed that stage. Pop. Pop. Pop-pop-pop.

After an hour, the pops slowed and faded. Then, with little fanfare, it was over -- four years smooshed into what felt like the final four minutes. As the stage crew ran desperately after the felled balls, we threw our caps in the air with a muffled woo-hoo, poured outside for family photos in the bright sun, piled into our respective family cars, and waved goodbye. To each other. To high school. To ping-pong balls. To another chapter, another path, clearing the way for the next.

Who's laughing now?

When I got home, I opened up my diploma folio, wondering if I'd hang it on the wall one day like I'd seen doctors and lawyers do. That's when I learned that the final prank was on us. The diploma that we'd all worked so hard for turned out to be an empty pleather folio with a form inside, telling us how to mail away for our real diploma a few months later. Yep, just like our yearbooks, those diplomas were still being printed. It was as if the entire administration wanted to stretch our senior year a little longer, to protect us from the real world just a few more weeks. Or perhaps they feared we'd pull a nastier prank, worthy of withholding those coveted degrees. More than likely it was just bad planning, laziness, procrastination -- par for the course with our "unspirited" bunch.

The school administrators may have pulled the last gag, planned or not. But you know something? Despite it's lack of bite, those ping-pong balls were pretty freakin' hilarious. Not as hilarious as my orange hair, but still...

Your turn!

So now I want to know... upcoming grads and younger high school students, what are you most excited about for graduation? Recent grads, how do you feel now that high school is behind you? And for those of us with *cough* more than a few years behind us since we last walked the scuffed halls of high school, what do you remember most about your own graduation?

xoxo
Sarah Ockler